Woyzeck saves the day and my cat

I had a really weird dream last night. I was in a grocery store and it was on Grant Avenue. They were selling kittens and puppies at the store. I looked at them and they were cute. Then I went to the refridgerated dairy products section, and they had smaller, runt kittens for sale in yogurt cups. There was one I really liked. She was a light orangish brown with a spot of yellow right above her nose. I can't remember her name. I believe it started with a C. So I bought her and took her outside because she needed to poop. I set her down, and she ran away! Into the street! I chased after her, and luckily neither of us was hit by a car. I chased her all around the square. People were trying to help, and one of them managed to get a leash on her. It was red. This is where it gets complicated. I'm standing outside the grocery store, there is Grant Ave. running across in front of me, and there is a street that runs perpendicular to that, which ends when it hits Grant. I am facing that street that ends. There is a young woman with long golden hair on the sidewalk stage left to the street I am facing. She is walking toward me with a chocolate lab on a red leash. Somehow, Chad Deverman as Woyzeck manages to grab the leash of my cat, but he's on rollerblades or something and can't stop, so he runs into the girl with the dog and everyone falls down. Chad is still holding on to my cat when I get there. He is lying flat on his back. I take the leash from him and kneel down and kiss him on the forehead. Then he's kind of confused, so my mind rewinds time to right before I kiss him. Instead of kissing him on the forehead, I remove his sunglasses and kiss him full on the lips. I surprised myself awake, and end of part I. Part II I can't remember as well, but Chad and Ryan were there and they were pixies or something weird. Ryan was acting as the Doctor and he kept yelling at Chad that he couldn't do certain things, but Woyzeck, in his craziness and also because he was trying to help other people out, kept proving him wrong. It was like we were in this house that was just a big indoor pool. Chad told Woyzeck that he couldn't go in the water because something bad would happen, I can't remember, it had something to do with the elements. He also told him he couldn't leave the house, becasue the air outside was full of fire, but since Chad was just out rescuing my cat, that wasn't true either. There was a fly flying around and it was, according to Ryan, a particularly malignant type of fly and that you couldn't touch, but Chad swatted it away and nothing bad happened. It was just really annoying. The house had all cream colored walls. I think at one point I was outside in my backyard. There wasn't much of a plot, other than Chad proving Ryan wrong about everything.

My dad is back from vacationing. It is annoying. He is annoying. I feel like I hold myself to higher standards than he does, and he disgusts me. It's like he's trying to make me fat and a couch potato. He was making lunch, and told me I could have one of the brownies he made previously. I'm like, "Um, not until AFTER lunch, thanks." and he keeps telling me about all these shows and crap on TV, and I'm like, "I haven't watched TV in almost two months. No thanks." And he always thinks I'm in a bad mood. News flash, father! Your second daughter is a quiet person, not a goth. Sorry I'm not the loud inyourface princess my older sister is.

Creo que reggaeton es muy interesante. Me gusta mucho. Tambien me gusta escribir en espanol. Puedo entender algas palabras en este cancion. Estoy contenta sobre eso.

That's it. ttyl!

Beneath this tree...

Listening to Little bird, little bird from Man of La Mancha. Great musical.

I tried talking to Sinny about the connections between Man of La Mancha and Woyzeck. Quixote goes on this impossible dream saying that he will make the world a better place by doing all thiese crazy things. Woyzeck gets pushed into doing a lot of these things by the doctor and the captain, but he is on the opposite spectrum than Quixote.

To dream ... the impossible dream ...
To fight ... the unbeatable foe ...
To bear ... with unbearable sorrow ...
To run ... where the brave dare not go ...
To right ... the unrightable wrong ...
To love ... pure and chaste from afar ...
To try ... when your arms are too weary ...
To reach ... the unreachable star ...

This is my quest, to follow that star ...
No matter how hopeless, no matter how far ...
To fight for the right, without question or pause ...
To be willing to march into Hell, for a Heavenly cause ...

And I know if I'll only be true, to this glorious quest,
That my heart will lie will lie peaceful and calm,
when I'm laid to my rest ...
And the world will be better for this:
That one man, scorned and covered with scars,
Still strove, with his last ounce of courage,
To reach ... the unreachable star

That's the Impossible Dream from Man of La Mancha. So Woyzeck also does a lot of these things. He fights the unbeatable foe: poverty. But he loses. His mother accepted that all she would ever do is suffer, but Woyzeck can't. He has to bear all the dehumanizeing experiments the doctor puts him through, and the things the captain does to him while he's shaving him. The doctor and the captain put him through all these dreadful experiments and phychological beatings just to see where he'll wind up. That's going where the brave dare not go. Tests on people are this. Assuming falsely that the doctor and captain are brave, they are putting Woyzeck all these things that they dare not do themselves, but want to know the outcome. Woyzeck is trying to right himself by living normally, but he is too oppressed and his life is controlled by other people. He doesn't love pure and chaste from afar obviously. The all-pea diet is slightly responsible for some of his madness.

It's hard to tell is Woyzeck is the normal one and everyone else is crazy, or if he's crazy and everyone else is normal. It's expressionist, so everyone else is portrayed only as it appears to Woyzeck, so if he thinks they are crazy, they will act crazy.

I'm trying to get hold of Stina so she can tell Sam to say "She had the most beautiful Aberratio" or something in his welcome speech during The Visit. Mr. Sinaiko will be there, and it's from Woyzeck, so he'll get a kick out of it. The doctor diagnoses Woyzeck with an aberratio mentalis partialis. But if he said something like, "My doctor said I have an aberratio" that would probably be enough. And the audience might still think it's funny. Maybe if he just said "Aberratio mentalis partialis" because the audience would think it's funny that he's spouting false medical terms, and Sinny would get it. I can't figure what an aberratio is. It's either Latin or German. Aberratio mentalis partialis is made up by Buchner, but Aberratio ictus is like a German literary term. It's frustrating.

I have to do my homework. ttyl!

Siempre me caigo

Title is from a song and it means 'I always fall down"

Ben cut his hair. He had to for "Anything Goes", and Zac will have to as well as soon as Beth finishes filming her movie. but I loved his hair. I even wrote a poem about it. The formatting probably won't show up, but here it is. It makes a lot of allusions to songs and plays, so it's a bit weird. I wonder what Ms. Sommer will think when I turn it in.

When Ben Cut his Hair

A Reactionary Poem

Stream of Consciousness

This title has three commas in it

It is just way ahead of its time

Highway 5

Wide expanse of blooming trees abound

We move so quickly,

And yet

We never get anywhere

The sweet smell of shampoo

Radiating from it,

His gray sweatshirt, is my pillow

I don’t like like him

I never did

Never think I did

So vanquish all doubt of that

My heart is ossified

For ever and ever

Oh, my iPod

The soul of the teenager, my life

You are dead.

There will be no reprieve

There will be no music to comfort

AllusionElisionConfusionCollusion

The music will not comfort

It shall haunt me forever

My heart, forevermore hold still

For ever and ever

What I loved has turned against me

He said himself they are of the same mold

Yin and yang

They are complete

Opposite

Take your mind off it

Think of something someone else

His better half?

Perhaps

I have a memory

It cleanses my misgivings

A reverie

I see his smiling face i

Float like seraphim

The sun whose rays are all ablaze

With everlasting glory

Does not deny his majesty…

But see his face before me

– Stop it

That’s PoeticPatheticPeripatetic

Quiet

I dust my shoulder of you!

You icy dame

That hammering there between the eyes

No, Woyzeck, no! Slow down!

hush___________________

Box little box

Containing four white points four small corners

I love him, but only on my own

Little bird, little bird please fly

Please go

Little bird, little bird and

Tell him so

Little bird, little box

Little box

Small box happy box calm box

Small box happy box calm box

Square bi Chinese symbol for earth

No box wrong box bad box

Small box happy box calm box

Four numbers in a box Cramer’s rule

Dizi

No box no flute no globs

Small box happy box calm box

Small box happy box calm box….

Where am I?

Yes. Here.

You are here still

I still believe

I know as long as I can keep believing,

I live

I live, love cannot die

For ever and ever

Though beards are shaved and hair

It is cut

You are still

I am left with your memory

It’s something-esque

So that's my poem.

I saw Mr. Sinaiko in Woyzeck a few days ago. I told him if he played a bad guy it would give me nightmares, but I haven't had any yet, thank goodness. It is kind of scarring to see someone you really respect play such an IMMORAL character. Immoral's probably not the correct word, but those of you who have seen the play would know that the Captain sees himself as a very virtuous person, but he really isn't.

Some people make great Fiyeros. Belgium would have. And now Francis Serpa would have. He was George Gibbs in Our Town by RVP.

I understood "The Impossible Dream" from Man of la Mancha. It's a really good song, but my version has a lot of skips in it.

That's it. ttyl!