I think there's one in my raincoat

This song quote is from Simon and Garfunkel's "America".

I had a very odd dream last night. It was pretty long. I was in the car or something. I had an assignment from Madame Baird to make a piece af artwork out of ripped construction paper. I didn't what to make. I finally decided to do the logo of Wicked. You know, Elphie on a broomstick? But then we started driving and I couldn't work while the car was moving. Then I was in this zoo on Mt. Olympus. I think it was on Mt. Olympus because we were all nymphs or something because we could fly. We had to feed the turtles, but they were attacking us. I didn't have my construction papered Elphie, so I was trying to go somewhere to think. We were all roleplaying, by the way. I went in this little room. Somehow I was listening to iTunes. But I was listening to something I'd heard before in a dream. But it wasn't a real soundtrack. That pisses me off when I compose songs in my dreams and can't remember them when I wake up. It sounded like the allargando in Hammersmith in that it was loud and dissonate, but the plot had something to do with Candide. It had about 20 songs that were one and two mintues long. Then the second to last was 6:27 and the last was 9:16. But the last was at the top and I listened to them backwards. I listened for a while and then this girl came in at the second to last song to see if I was okay because I was laying on the floor. I grabbed her ankle to stop her from leaving. I asked her if we could go somewhere quiet to talk because I needed help thining of something to do for the assignment since my project was unfinished and in the car, which was miles away. It might have been Allie, but since I didn't know her character, I had to be all polite because she was older and higher ranked. We tried a lot of doors to find a quiet place to talk, even though I had looked in on all of them on my way from feeding the turtles to listening to music in that little room. One had a plant in the window, but someone was talking on the phone. Then we tried this one door and it was like a hotel lobby. It had a staircase in the back where the rooms were. Ben was like a bellboy or something. He had on a blue jumpsuit. We asked Ben what he was doing. He said he was trapped here because he had stayed too long. He told us to get out before we were trapped by the concierge too. Somehow all three of us managed to get out, but we lost our ability to fly. Then Allie left. Then somehow the building we were in dissolved into school and we were near my locker. Linda was at her locker, which was right below mine. Ben wanted to go say hi to Linda, so we linked arms and walked over. Remember we were roleplaying, and my character had a huge crush on Ben, so I tried to get a dreamy look on my face and clutched his arm a bit too tight. He had really thin arms, but they were all muscle. Then we were talking to Linda and Ben started paying more attention to her than to me, so I was sad. But then Linda turned around and it actually wasn't her. I was really embarrassed because I was being really friendly and I actually didn't know her. Then I was all, "Oh great now Ben's going to think I'm stupid because I can't even tell between my friends and complete strangers. He'll never like my character now." But it didn't matter because I woke up.

Why can't I ever link arms with Anthony Rapp in my dreams? Oh well. Ben's cool. But I don't like him like I do Anthony Rapp. Besides, he's got a girlfriend. He's fun to talk to, but even though we sit next to each other in bio, he's got all his musical theatre friends to talk to. The only time I can talk to him is before PE.

Ever since I read Anthony Rapp's book "Without You", I've been composing emails to him in my mind. I don't know. I feel like I know him since I've read his book, and I love his voice in Rent, and it seems like all his fame hasn't gone to his head, but all I know is how he's portrayed himself in his book. And of course his book is going to biased slightly because he's not going to show himself in a bad light unless he felt that way. Did that even make sense? I don't know. And his fansite is down for maintainence, so even if it had his email address on it, I wouldn't be able to ever email me. And I doubt I would ever have the courage to, since whatever I sent wouldn't be good enough for him to read and them I'd regret it. And I have nothing important to say to him. Anything I did say would probably just scare him.

Not like anything I say is actually important. ttyl