Thursday, February 15

I Still Believe

Title is the song I've been listening to over and over again from "Miss Saigon" it's really potent.

This would be an interesting experiment: have people listen to the finale of the Firebird, "Oh Happy We" from Candide, and Micaela's Aria from Carmen and see which one is more moving to them, the one with no words, the one in English, or the one they can't understand but has words. Personally the firebird is the most moving; I get chills down my spine when it is played at full volume. Creepy. But I love the horn part in Micaela's aria. "Oh, Happy We" makes me happy, but the two lovers aren't listening to each other so it has some tension that never really develops into anything because they are torn apart.

that's it. ttyl!

Tuesday, February 6

I don't want to be LIKE Jesus, I Fucking am Jesus

The title is the best line of Martin McDonagh's The Pillowman and it's a really disturbing play. Anyway, I won't be talking about it right now because it's time to talk about Tim.

Tim is weird. He's really smart and always makes allusions to history, movies, and things like that to be funny and to insult people. He likes classic literature, manga, classical music, video games, and biochemistry. He has big hair. Not good big hair, like Robert Plant big hair, only not as shiny, blonde, or long. Or well kept, for that matter. Anyway, he sounds pretty cool, right? Right. We're friends. My sister nags me that I should go out with him. But it will never happen. Now I will tell you why. Remember that he teases and insults people? Well, he doesn't seem to know the difference between the two. I can understand light teasing and joking around with people, but you're not supposed to downright insult your friends unless you're having a heart to heart. And Tim doesn't seem to know the difference between teasing someone, or even insulting someone facetiously, and putting them down.Yes, it's good to be honest, but not so brutally frank. If you're going to tear the very fiber of a person's being asunder, be polite about it. So my liking Tim will never happen. You know how you think about a person differently than how you feel about someone when you're with them? Yeah. A few days ago, I got totally excited just thinking about how Tim wrote these notecards that I was reading. But not so much when we're sitting together writiting more flashcards. I'm sorry, but I need a friend who is supportive of me if I put myself out there, not insult me. I am trying my best to disillusion myself with Tim and realize the immature person he is who can't hold his tongue for the life of him. ttyl